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Lyric of the Week: DEPRESSION

Updated: Oct 8

Depression

Coming down on me

Like a breaker in the surf tearing away at the shore

Depression

Just won’t let me be

The sun doesn’t wanna shine on me anymore

I’m caught in a whirlpool going round and round

The tide pulls me under and I’m gonna drown

No one to stop me from going down

Can’t even try to show my face in town, it’s nothing but

Depression

Coming down on me

I’m like debris in the gutter swept away by a heavy downpour

Depression

Looking like a fool

Going mad like a dog in the street in the heat of the day

Dejection

Never seems to cool

I try to talk it over, but I don’t know what to say

Keep on going though I’m about to fall

Destiny leads me nowhere at all

My existence is forced up against the wall

Nobody answers when I make my call, it’s nothing but

Rejection

Made to look like a fool

She threw me out of her life in the very worst way

Progression

Time is moving slow

The minutes pass like hours and my mind is flying in space

Expression

There’s no way to show

Lost my power to speak and you can’t read nothing on my face

I’m locked in a room with nothing to do

When’s it all gonna stop? I wish I knew

Can’t hold myself down just to see it through

Should I end it all now? Yes, I’m going to, it’s nothing but

Depression

There’s nowhere to go

No sanctuary anywhere once you leave this place

Depression

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The "Depression Session," Nov. 1983. Trying to coax a Hammond sound out of a Casio.

Far from being a song about clinical depression, this is my teen-angst anthem, written during the throes of final-exam season in my senior year of high school and recorded about half a year later. It was my first serious attempt at tackling a subject other than relationships. I composed it on a Casio CT-202 in the TV lounge of my high-school dorm in Jerusalem, which had the best acoustics in the building and I could fool myself into thinking the Casio could produce a sound that approximated a Hammond organ. (It would be another year and a half before I would record with an actual Hammond for the first time.) I recorded a rough version of it on a boombox in that room, and when I played it back at home awhile later, my mother heard it and said she liked it enough to give me a few bucks so I could record it professionally in a studio. With that cash in hand, I went to Jerusalem Recording Studio, in the Bet Hakerem neighborhood of the city not far from my old high-school campus, owned by one Avi Yaffe and scene of my first-ever recording sessions over the previous year and a half. I tracked about half-a-dozen sounds from the Casio, enlisted friend-of-a-friend Jeff Schiff to play drums during the song's coda, and then overdubbed vocals. The result was an overwrought, overly melodramatic stab at wannabe-prog-rock that seemed to scare away everyone who listened to it. But I was proud of it, at least at the time.

I still have the master cassette of the song, and somewhere I may even have a digital version, but rather than try to dredge that up and make it available online, I believe I'd rather re-record it with a proper Hammond organ and perhaps even a full band behind me. Imagine that, releasing my teen-angst anthem in my middle age. But stranger things have happened. That's rock'n'roll.


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