Another month has come and gone
(What am I still doing here?)
The weeks just roll on and on and on
(What am I still doing here?)
Days slip by like white lines on the highway
(What am I still doing here?)
So many minutes fly, but they ain’t flyin' my way
(What am I still doing here?)
I'm in the east and my heart's in the west
I thought by coming back here my future would be blessed
But all I got was continued pain in my chest
What am I still doing here?
This is the place that I used to love
(What am I still doing here?)
The place I used to write songs about and take pictures of
(What am I still doing here?)
I came back to be in my creative element
(What am I still doing here?)
But inspiration seems to have got up and went
(What am I still doing here?)
The same old diners, the same old bars
Still trying to make a living driving cars
Can't even think of reaching for the stars
What am I still doing here?!
So I've come to the conclusion that this is not what it seemed
(What am I still doing here?)
Maybe I’ll wake up and see it was all a bad dream
(What am I still doing here?)
And as much as I once was in love with this place
(What am I still doing here?)
What was true before is no longer the case
(What am I still doing here?)
So I gotta make my way to the opposite shore
I gotta find my way back to the place I was before
The road awaits on the other side of the door
What am I still doing here?!?
©2023 The Hesh Inc.
I was working as a limousine driver for about a year and a half after coming back to the Jersey Shore from Los Angeles. What I thought was a promising job prospect, which had lured me back east from LA, fell through, and there was nothing else in the offing during that time. I was so consumed with this idiotic job that I could not think of pursuing my musical ambitions, though I did have several opportunities during that time. I do not recommend this line of work to anyone unless they REALLY have nothing better to do.