You’re still out there
But why do I still care
Your grip on me has broken
But not a word has been spoken
You had no way to tell
I lived under your spell
Wrapped up in obsession
And one-sided expression
Oh, how I ached for you
My heart would break for you
The feelings that I hid
The things I wish we did
But I was in love with an image
Of things left unfinished
When I went away
After that graduation day
And if I’d have remained,
Would it have been ordained
For us to be together
Doing whatever, whenever?
I think that we might have
And perhaps we would by right have
But it’s all just a guess now
There’s no need to obsess now
‘Cause we’ve grown so far apart
My erstwhile counterpart
Our lives are so different
And our past is so distant
So when I see your name out there
I wonder why I still care
Because the fog has cleared
And you’re so out of my sphere.
©2024 The Hesh Inc.
This song was written, sometime in the earlier 2000s, about several people I knew from my grade-school years whose fingers I was tightly wrapped around, emotionally, for a long time after we had any kind of actual in-person interaction. Our paths rarely crossed after those early years but after I first got online and started searching for old names from the past, these people's names popped up and it got me wondering whatever became of them. Some years later, on separate occasions, I had the opportunity to meet them again, and I learned, perhaps the hard way, that they weren't "all that," they never were as into me as I imagined them to be, and that some stones are really best left unturned. These lyrics were written without any music, but the Moody Blues' "I Know You're Out There Somewhere" came to mind when I wrote them.