The chips are down, the days are bad
The worst times I ever had
Though I survived my fall from grace
I left town with my name disgraced
Just when I think that I’ve come home
Open the door and I’m alone
No one to turn to nowhere to go
I’m in a state of vertigo
I don’t mind if you settle down here
Just as long as you say you never leave me
Had enough of these three-day romances
I thought with you I wouldn’t have to take my chances
I try to get myself awake
The way things are, my life’s at stake
I get in trouble for the things I do
And I can’t seem to make it up to you
The word spreads back to the friends I know
Now all my friendships are about to blow
There’s nothing left in the world for me
Yet nothing seems to let me be
I don’t mind ...
If you knew this was a passing mood
And not a change of attitude
Then our love wouldn’t be at its end
And me’n’you could be one again
I don’t mind ...
©2015 The Hesh Inc.
I started writing songs as a high-school freshman, and predictably, I wore a lot of influences on my sleeve and the results were at best stilted. But by the time I neared graduation, I had rounded the rough edges somewhat and wasn't quite as blatant with showing the influences. This one was the first one that I could really consider a Song, one that I would be unashamed to include in setlists well into adulthood.
UNfortunately, too many people in my social circles, for some reason, deemed it The Best I Ever Wrote, and even well after I had gone on to what I considered greater accomplishments, these people kept on coming back to this as the epitome of my songwriting. Nothing I did afterwards impressed them as much as this one did. I don't know why—maybe because they were so impressed at how "mature" I was when I wrote it as a 12th-grader.
But when it came time to record the REALITY SHOCK album in the early 2000s, musical partner Izzy Kieffer and I decided to include this, if for no other reason than etching it in stone as part of our history. And as far as I was concerned, throwing a bone to the folks back home who could not get over the fact that I had moved on. I hope they are happy with it.
Here it is, from my Boardwalk Mystic collection, released in 2015: