Lyric of the Week: AFTER I SAID I WOULDN’T DO IT

after I said I wouldn’t do it

I went ahead and did it anyway

I just threw up my hands and said screw it

and guess what? I’m still here today

after I said I wouldn’t do it

I went ahead and did it anyway

I plunged right in and I got through it

and I made it to the other side OK

after I said I wouldn’t do it

I went ahead and did it anyway

I said I’d resist but then I blew it

I thought I’d stay on the path but I went astray

I’ve done this all my life and I never understood

how I can hate myself for doing it when it feels so good

I make myself strong but the impulse is stronger

and resistance doesn’t hold out for much longer

and what kind of payoff do I get from this

maybe five minutes of temporary bliss

but five and five and five and so on

gives me the reason to want to go on

after I said I wouldn’t do it

I find myself doing it over again

I swear it off but then I renew it

maybe somehow this has to end

but I keep on saying that I won’t do it

and I keep on seeking to fulfill these needs

with all the good intention, I still pursue it

you know where the all good intention leads

©2024 The Hesh Inc.

After I said I wouldn't do it, I went ahead and did it anyway ... and the world didn't end.

A song about fighting irresistible urges, written sometime in the early 2000s as I myself was testing certain boundaries (and not always passing those tests). Musically, I imagined a reggae-style groove similar to Bob Marley's "Want More." Never recorded or performed.